I hope that you never leave me, im tired of fighting and i want to do anything to make it like it was, before i said any o those hurtfull things to you, before you ever felt like you didnt want to be with me, before you ever felt like i didnt love you. i do anything to have it back as it was before i pushes you so far away. i love you as much as i ever loved you from day one, it may be hard to believe because of the things i did to you. i want you to feel safe with me like you once did. i want you to look at me like you once did. i just want you to feel like you didnt regret me. i understand i have cause all this i know your hanging on a thread of hope. i WANT to fix everything i WANT you to believe me i WANT you to always know you made the right decision to marry me i WANT you to know that we will always be together I know iv done so much to you i cant fathom how your still here by my side. Im at lost of words and at disbelieve that i would ever be mean to you especially to the person i love most to the world. i feel like im going crazy i want to be the guy you fell in love with i know i can because i was that guy before. i guess my insecurities and jealousy has darkened my path and i lost my way but im going to do whatever you want me too and ima do whatever it takes to make everything right even it takes a lifetime and the next. I hate myself for everything iv done to you, you never deserved any of it. you do everything perfect and more, i cant put into words how much i appreciate what you do everyday. i still wake up every morning feeling so outstandingly tremendously happy how my life has turned out. i love you so much it FUCKING HURTS. I DONT KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MY EMOTIONS ANY MORE. i feel like i can not ever stop loving you more and more and more and more, it builds everyday tyhat i wake up to you. the things id do for you and beyond, i will stop at nothing to gain your trust and for you to feel safe with me once more. as long as i have HOPE i will never stop. i will improve everything , i will stop being mean to you i will make you happy and ill make you never feel depressed or alone. i want you to know that i do get it i do understand that i fucked up to much, but belive me i will change i may say it a million time before but i will dont have to believe me right away but just watch and see, im no longer going to get upset and if i do i wont change it to anger anymore i know i can fix this i know it. i just want you to know your my whole world. i dont want to lose you i dont want that feeling to ever cross me again. i love you more than life itself. You and Lena Will have the Husband And Dad yall deserve. you dont have to believe me but just have faith thats all i ask. Kelsea you will always hold my heart and have my soul to have, i just cant express how sorry iam and how much it burns inside of me for how i treat you. im so sorry. I just have hope that even if you have a little faith in me thats fine thats all i need. please just dont give up on me i will always need you and i will always love you. you will see the change in me eventually after today when we had that fight at tyler and i didnt comfort you but made things worse because i got mad, it will be the last time i get mad at you, since you been gone at lizzys iv been thinking and im so happy you make me feel better when my feelings are hurt and you deserve the same support no matter how long it takes i will make it all better i will not get frustrated or mad because you dont believe me, i will give you the support you need. i love you so much kelsea i will find the way back to your heart. I just HOPE you give me the chance.